I must say that things didnt go too well these past few days but life still goes on. I realised that I'm a pessimistic person anyway. Not say that I'm not brave but im simply a pessimistic person. Ask anyone and they will say " no la fadzly. you r so funny and humorous and always look on the bright side. There's no way ure a pessimistic person". HAHA...there's is where you are wrong people. Nobody knows me better than myself and of course God. I know people say what they said just to comfort you and some dare not to speak their minds. I did that too...only to certain people only...

Anyways, some things are bothering me and sometimes I feel that it's not worth mentioning. I really really really hope things go well for me and I really really really want things to happen. Like someone said to me just now, I must take actions in order to achieve results. Am I willing and ready to take actions? Guess what people, I'm just afraid of the outcome. Yes people....I'm not a brave person afterall. And theres another saying "nothing venture nothing gain". Guess what again people, I'm not a risk taker.

okok...i think i'm blabbering. But seriously, I want it to happen.. Oh God please give me courage...

still searching the light @ 12:50 AM

It's Not Over - Secondhand Serenade


My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame:
it's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say come out and now we are all ashamed.
And there is no sense
In playing games, when you done all you can do.

But now it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it.
Now it's over,
It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back, but it's over.

I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right.
I cry, I cry. I'm
Shaking from the pain that's in my head. I just want to crawl into my
bed and throw away
The life that I led. But I won't let it die. But I won't let it die.

But it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it.
Now it's over,
It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back.

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever.
You're breaking
My, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together.
We could be over
And over, we could be forever.

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever.
You're breaking
My, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together.
We could be over
And over, we could be forever.

It's not over. It's not over, it's never over, unless you let it take you,
it's not over,
It's not over, it's not over, unless you it break you. It's not over.

still searching the light @ 12:43 AM