I must say that things didnt go too well these past few days but life still goes on. I realised that I'm a pessimistic person anyway. Not say that I'm not brave but im simply a pessimistic person. Ask anyone and they will say " no la fadzly. you r so funny and humorous and always look on the bright side. There's no way ure a pessimistic person". HAHA...there's is where you are wrong people. Nobody knows me better than myself and of course God. I know people say what they said just to comfort you and some dare not to speak their minds. I did that too...only to certain people only...

Anyways, some things are bothering me and sometimes I feel that it's not worth mentioning. I really really really hope things go well for me and I really really really want things to happen. Like someone said to me just now, I must take actions in order to achieve results. Am I willing and ready to take actions? Guess what people, I'm just afraid of the outcome. Yes people....I'm not a brave person afterall. And theres another saying "nothing venture nothing gain". Guess what again people, I'm not a risk taker.

okok...i think i'm blabbering. But seriously, I want it to happen.. Oh God please give me courage...

still searching the light @ 12:50 AM